fairytale gone so bad
Sunday, April 01, 2007
finally its over but not so fast. the tear in my heart is still wide open.unstitched. i thought i could get over him that very quick cause i thought my love was fading too but no. yesterday than i realized that i still love him very much. tears keep coming.thoughts never stopping. is there any cure to this sort of pain? at least a pain killer. i knew that was goin to be his decision and i was right. i din got to savour the last hug that marked the end of our relationship. i kno he still needs time but he deciedes for it. i accepted but not with the will of my heart. the last thing i had to endure, the pain of love.i know i could face him, but once i turn my back i would cry. i dont know how long anymore i could stand it. im now living in a lie, wearing a mask. pretending the happiness but deep down it trully scarred. a worse scar than before. is my love for nothing? they just fade in others heart. how i wish he'd realise it was wrong.
written on 11 january
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